Self Portraits

Just so you know

It’s everywhere

the black dog

tried to tame it

play roll over

give it a bone

but it’s lock-jaw

no candy 

in site

can’t seem

to fake

another

day

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Self Portrait II

A barrel of oil
stuffed black
to the brim

I splash out
“watch out below”
but it’s too late
I coat and cover

And then drip by drop
the barrel re-fills
quicker this time
until the smallest sniff
is enough to tip me over

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Wobble

wobble
fragile today
all doubtful
unsproutful
not a poet they say

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Coasting on the thermal

Lovely me
where did I flee

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ALONE

Nothing to say
about life
at this time

Standing still
beating off days
of forced engagement

Need to walk until
my hip bones grind
I crave an eon of silence
Not forever mind you
I’d miss people too much

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STUCK

Each year the same rot
"we make our own fate"
the intellectuals debate
sleep in the bed that you make

I thought if I willed hard enough
she would hear me, a message
through the airwaves carried
by the clouds

I don't believe in universal energy
anymore. Life is what it is.
Or I am duller than I supposed

All hoping, dreaming and wanting
I will die unfulfilled
unsexed, unsexual, un-bi-aided

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Por que?

Believe not
in that creator
or much else

Offering
no alternative
no insights
for a life

Still asking
the frigging
meaning
of it all

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